So Far So…

 

So, what is there to tell you? Life is not all unicorns and rainbows. Sometimes it is just downright frustrating.

Yes, we’re very fortunate. Our car accident a few weeks ago could have been much worse.

Marc has a concussion.

Concussions are tricky and maddening. The brain is complicated. Recovering from an injured brain is hard and slow.

Go lie down right now in a dark room, close your eyes and don’t think about anything. Do this all day. For multiple days in a row. No you can’t have your iPhone, iPad, computer, book, Kindle, Apple watch, listen to audio books, play chess or watch Netflix. Just lie there.

Yeah, not easy.

Now try to do this when you’ve only been home for five days after being away in Belgium racing and training for six weeks. Do this three days after your cat nearly dies.

To say these past few weeks have been hard is an understatement. I know that I should be super positive and relieved that we’re okay. Of course I am. But geez, sometimes it does feel like a lot.

It’s a lot when we don’t know when things will be back to normal. There is no date that we can aim for. We just have to hope and wait.

My heart breaks when I see Marc going through this. I’d do anything to switch places with him. But I can’t. All I can do is be patient (admittedly, this is not easy for me). I’ve had some very angry days, but I know this anger is useless and not helpful. So now, all I can do is push the stress and worry to the back. What else is there really?

Time cannot be turned back or sped up. It is what it is.