Happy New Year!

Just popping into quickly to wish you a Happy New Year. Whatever you plan to do to ring 2011 I sincerely hope you’re with the ones you treasure most.

I will be celebrating the New Year by leaving the hospital. I have been here for one week and I can honestly say I can’t wait to get out of here. I’ve got a longer post rolling around in my head about this experience that I will post next week, but for now, all I have to say is: thank-you.

Thank-you for the comments, emails, messages, thoughts and prayers. This month of December has been very trying for myself, Marc and my family. It has helped us all so much knowing that you have taken the time to drop me a note, think of me, and just simply be around when needed.

As for my health? Well, I’m on the way to becoming healthy again. Ulcerative colitis is a very tricky disease and thanks to the amazing doctors and nurses at the hospital here in Herentals, I’ve been able to get back on track. I have had some low moments this past month but I’m coming around and looking forward to the year ahead.

Alright, enough mumbling about hospitals and sickness. This is a happy time. I’m can’t wait to get out and breathe in th fresh air and simply enjoy being with my favorite guy. (Oh and take a shower – impossible to shower with an IV stand and bags of medicine attached to one’s body…)

However you take in the New Year – enjoy it!

Christmas: A Parent’s Perspective

My dad graciously sent me a blog post to help fill in the blank space this week. This post isn’t really cycling related, but it gives you a glimpse into the amazing family and support-system I’m blessed with…

Christmas is a time for family.  For us, the last several Christmases have meant togetherness via Skype and the telephone because our family has been separated by many thousands of kilometers.  Saskatchewan to Ontario, and Saskatchewan to Belgium.  But this year, we were indeed fortunate.  Our move to Lakefield, Ontario, brought us close to Gregory and his family, so we were able to spend two wonderful days enjoying their company and our grandson’s first Christmas in our new home.

For an almost one year old, Christmas does not have a real impact, but for his parents and grandparents it certainly heralded a fresh chapter in the family history.  We were overjoyed, watching him react to the newness of the situation as he made laps around the living room and kitchen clutching a favourite new toy – a pot scrubber from his Mom’s (Liz’s) Christmas stocking! The myriad musical toys – singing puppy, Jack in the Box, a really mellow drum form Auntie Vicki and Uncle Marc – paled beside the tasty wonders of that bristly tool.  And squeaky toys usually played with by Pixie, our poodle, found favour, inciting more than a little angst in their owner’s mind…

We all had chance to visit with Vicki and Marc, and the distance between us was lessened by those several minutes of conversation thanks to Skype.  Although circumstances for V and M were (and still are) far from perfect, with Vicki having to spend the Christmas week tucked up in a hospital bed, we felt the closeness that this holiday brings. How lucky we are to be together when we are apart.

What will the New Year bring, I wonder? Our hope – Sue’s and mine – is for a return to good health for Vicki who will, with the unfailing love and support of Marc, continue to fill us with pride, and for continued happiness for Gregory and his family as they enter another phase of parenthood (Liz returning to the daily grind of her office, and Gregory assuming the role of primary care-giver).

I think it’s fair to say that seven people usually far from each other have been brought so close that distance is no longer an issue. May the coming year nurture and protect us all.

Thanks Dad for this heartfelt post, yes I’m sitting here with watery eyes and thoughts of the future…

 

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas! Hope you’re having a great Christmas weekend. We’re surrounded in snow here in Blauberg. Serious snow – snow to the point that Marc and Karl were out shoveling today!

I just wanted to post quickly to wish you a Happy Christmas. Thanks so much for the support over this past year – it is the best Christmas gift I could receive.

This is a very different Christmas for me this year… One, I’m not racing at the Zolder World Cup on Dec. 26. As much as I dread that race and the insane descent, I’m missing not being part of it this year. Secondly, this year I’m not at the Blauberg house with a bunch of happy Canadians… Instead I’m in the hospital in Herentals. Turns out I’m sicker than we realized and after an emergency colonoscopy, it turns out that I need to be hospitalized for five days. Not good, but at least this way I can get on the path to recovery.

The hardest part about this is Marc. I was really trying to make it to his race on Christmas Day. Not so much now. My being here is harder on Marc than it is on me. So please send your positive vibes his way. If you see him out at a race – give him a hug or a pat on the back.

So all this to say – have a great Christmas weekend. Take the time to savor all that you have – your friends, your family, and your loved ones. Enjoy the laughter, smiles, stories, and good times. Be sure to indulge in some tasty food – my faves include mincemeat tarts, Yorkshire pudding, chocolate log, my mom’s meat stuffing (made with spicy Italian sausage), cheeseburger pie, rice tarts, trifle, brussel sprouts, after eight chocolate mints – basically all the good Christmas food I grew up with.

Merry Christmas! (If you’re racing on the weekend – take a few pedal strokes for me. I’ll be cheering for you.)

Kalmthout World Cup

Up early today, lots of snow on the ground and the drive to Kalmthout is going to be slow. No problems, this is why I always pack my race bag the night before. Okay into the car with Marc and we’re off. We made it with plenty of time  and now I can get settled into my pre-race routine. Marc is off to check out the course and to cheer on Karl.

My race is at 1:30 so I’ve got lots of time to get ready, pin on my numbers and eat my pre-race meal. Just the way I like it – lots of time to relax and get in my groove before the race. I put some music on and let the course run through my brain. I see the start and the first entrance onto the course. It is going to be icy and it is going to be slippery. Fine with me, I’m pretty comfortable in these conditions. I’m running the file treads today and I’ve got the pressure set just right so I’ll get some good traction and still be able to roll over the bumps and lumps in the snow and ice. Really there is only one line today. Keep your wheels in this line, head up and remember to keep pedaling and everything will be fine. Super icy corners – I’ll likely dismount and quickly run them. Up and over the stairs as quick as I can. Sprint into the fly-over and let the bike flow on the way down. Keep pedaling. Eyes up.

Time is starting to tick by. I like to eat two hours before my race so it is time to dig out my plastic container with my homemade ride pudding. This is white rice cooked in water and then I add sliced banana, a blob of natural peanut butter and rice milk to give it the pudding texture. Carbs. Protein. Comfort. Perfect pre-race meal. Marc is back and is busy with my bikes. Luc and Ignance are here now as well – everyone is starting to get a bit excited. I’ve got my skinsuit pinned up and my race clothing is ready to go. Cold one today so I’ve decided to go with leg warmers and my Sealskinz socks and gloves.

Alright, what is the time? 12:00. Okay, time to get some warm-up clothes on and hop on the trainer. I like to ride for 45 minutes to an hour to get loose and ready for the race. It helps me stay relaxed and actually takes my mind off the race a bit. I ride, chat with people as they come by and just enjoy the moments. My warm-up routine is roughly 20 minutes or so of easy riding followed by 4:30 minutes of tempo with a 30 second all out effort, recover for 5 minutes and repeat the effort – I follow this with more easy spinning.

Ah, good warm-up. Legs feel really good. They ticked over really nicely and I was able to really open up the legs. Just the sensations I want before a race. Okay the race starts in 40 minutes or so. Off the bike for a quick pee. Back on the bike for more spinning. 1:00 – time to pull on my race clothes and then back on the trainer for a few more minutes. Wow, it is 1:15 already – time to get over to the start. Quickly change my shoes and socks – I always like to start with dry shoes and socks. Quick hug and kiss from Marc and I’m off.

I love riding up and down the start/finish straight of the race course. It is relaxed yet tense at the same time. A collision of all ranges of emotions happens in this very short space. Some of the other racers are visibly nervous. Others are super relaxed and are joking. The fans are starting to come out and crowd along the course barriers. I see Luc and Johnny – they’ve got their cameras ready and are already cheering for me. I pedal along up and down, chatting with my friends and really just wishing the race would start.

The whistle blows and we’re all in the start area waiting for our call-up. I’m in the fourth row today. Ah well, no big deal. Everyone is pushing trying to move up a bit – trying to get an edge on the start. The gun goes off. We’re off. Okay, sprint, settle in, catch a wheel. Ya – nice start. Here comes the corner, pay attention to drifting wheels and listen for squealing brakes. Crash, no problems you saw it coming and got around it. Onto the snow and ice. That’s it. Settle. Settle. Relax your shoulders. Just pedal now. You know what to do. Look up. Easy on the brake. Here comes that icy corner that Karl told you about, off your bike and around you go, back on the bike sprint up to speed. Settle in. Breathe. Calm. By the pits – there’s Marc and Ignance – they’re cheering and pointing at the good line. Get ready for the fly-over. Sprint. Sprint. Keep pedaling up and over and pedal on the way down. Good job. Okay back into some slippery stuff. Don’t lean the bike too much. Relax. Pedal. Good job. Ah the bike is sliding, stick out that foot and catch the bike. Nice! I hear Luc cheering for me. By the pits a second time. “Nice ride” “Good job” Onto the pavement and time to go around again. It is a fast one today. Five more laps to go. I can do it. I’m loving the course and having a great day on the bike. Keep going. Pedal. Focus. The bell lap! Yes, the bell lap. I’ve done it. Good job Vicki. Just keep it going now. By the pits – Marc is so pumped up. “Awesome ride” Okay, just stay calm and upright now. Onto the pavement, there is the finish line. Give it one more big hard effort. Ah, I did it. There’s Denise with my warm-up clothes. Luc is there taking some pictures. I’m ecstatic. Excellent race today. What a feeling.

I roll back to the car. Put on some more warm clothes and onto the trainer. I like to spin out my legs for 20 minutes or so after each race. Helps me keep them fresh for the next day and it gives me time to think about the race. Today I can’t stop smiling. I just had such a great ride. Everything seemed to come together today. What a feeling. I love this sport. Marc and Ignance are back from the pits – Marc is stoked. We talk about the race as he and Ignance clean my bikes. Okay, time to get changed and eat some food. Ah, what a day. Couldn’t have asked for more.

Car is packed and before I know it we’re back in Blauberg. Great day. Karl and I vote for Sultan’s for supper. We monopolize the supper time conversation by talking about our races and what we loved about the course and how it felt out there. Marc, Alex and Denise try but they can’t get  word in. Great day. Can’t wait for the next race. Thanks for the cheering and support.

(Of course this is a fictional account of today’s World Cup race in Kalmthout, Belgium. I wasn’t able to race today due to my illness. But this is how I imagined the day and I’m pretty sure how it would have turned out. Nothing quite like the emotions of race day.)

Fighting

Just wanted to let you all know that I’m still here. I’ve taken a few days away from this site because I’ve been pretty focused on resting and recovering. And to tell the truth, I really don’t have a lot to say right now. I haven’t ridden my bike in over a week and I’m not sure when I’ll be able to ride it again. I really wish I could tell you about my latest training rides and preparation for upcoming races – but unfortunately this is not where I am right now.

Nope, instead I’m focused on getting healthy. 100 per cent healthy. This is different from the level of “health” I was in at the start of this cyclo-cross season. I now realize that I wasn’t healthy. I wanted to be healthy. I told myself I was healthy. But I wasn’t. I was fighting my body each and every time I got on the bike. Finally and ultimately, my body won. So now here I am sitting, resting, sleeping, waiting, hoping that I will get better.

So what am I doing to get better? Well I’m not riding. I’m not racing. I’ve switched to a gluten and dairy free diet. I’m taking some new medications. I’m trying to eat – this is hard because I really don’t have an appetite and food often makes me feel worse. I’m researching and reading – currently learning about veganism and Brendan Brazier’s Thrive Diet. I’m working hard to stay in a positive mental head space. I’m sleeping as much as my body wants.

Is it working? Hard to know. This type of healing takes time and patience. So this is what I’ll focus on – giving my body all the time it needs to heal and be ready for next season. I’m working hard at being patient with my body – it is very hard to not be frustrated with what I see as a “faulty” body – but it is the only one I have so I must do my best to give it time to heal. Time and patience.

I’m not going anywhere. I’ll be back next season ripping it up on the cyclo-cross bike zipping around the course in my red,white and black kit. Next year is going to be a good one. I can’t wait to get back out training with the “kids”, with Mr. Timbo Schleck Austen and to hold more cyclo-cross practice sessions (these benefit me as much as you). Until then – I wait and I get better.

As I write this I’m listening to the 2010 cyclo-cross season warm-up playlist that I created at the start of this season. I listen to this before and after every cyclo-cross race. Right now it is reminding me of how much I miss being out there with you guys racing my bike.