The tricky thing about this is that you just really never know what you’re going to get day-to-day. One day you wake up and you feel pretty good so you go hammer out some kilometres on the bicycle. Next day you’re still feeling pretty good so you continue on with life as you know it – working, volunteering, pedaling, eating, hanging out – you know normal people stuff.
And then that day-to-day changes. Sometimes it creeps up on you slowly – you kind of know it’s coming but you push it back and try to ignore it. If you don’t acknowledge it, maybe it won’t happen, it’ll change it’s mind and go back where it came from. Other times you wake up and it’s there. Full-on there and there is nothing you can do about it.
You suddenly have a new day-to-day.
Last week was a great one. Two very good medical appointments. Finally met with two surgeons, I learned a lot about the surgeries I’ll be getting. I asked a lot of questions. I got a lot of very good answers. We both left feeling very comfortable and confident with the path forward. (No, we didn’t get a surgical date – I’ll know the date six weeks in advance. The wait for this notice could be long, very long. But this is the reality and there is no point in dwelling on it.) Next day I met with my regular gastro doctor for a very good appointment. I mentioned the slight flare I was in but I told him I had it under control. That everything was okay. Yes, I promised to contact him if things changed.
That’s the thing I guess I’ll never truly learn. After all these years, there is no such thing as a slight flare or under control. After all, if I could keep it under control, why would I be writing about the uncertainties in my day-to-day? Yep, silly me.
My new day-to-day involves resting, eating (but not much), pedaling my bike (but not much), and hoping. Hoping this thing doesn’t completely take over. Now is not the time.
Amazing isn’t it how just when you think you have things under control, everything can change on an instant.
I guess this just goes to show that we can never take our day-to-day for granted.
(P.S. stumbled on a hashtag that I really quite like and one day I’ll be using it: #nocolonstillrollin)