I’m just going to come out and say it – I miss the before times.

I miss having plans. I miss being spontaneous. I miss seeing friends and family. I miss feeling at ease when I go to the grocery store.

I miss going mountain biking with my riding pal. I miss going for group rides. I miss sitting down in a restaurant for a meal with friends. I miss hugging (I know shocker – I’m not much of a hugger).

I miss the casualness of life.

I miss having plans.

I know I’m not alone in this. And I know that my experiences during the pandemic have been very easy compared to those of so many. I know I’m fortunate.

But, I still feel directionless. I know this feeling will pass and I’ll get my mojo back. But it’s a challenging place for me to be since I’ve always been very driven and motivated.