Yes, today I’m angry. It was a beautiful day here in Belgium and I could not ride my bike. Instead I spent time at with another doctor and walked rather slowly around Aarschot with Nikoline.
Now I know some of you are wringing your hands and shaking your heads because I’m feeling angry and frustrated… I know that I should be thankful that I have two fully functioning legs and that I will ride a bike again. But I am still angry. Last season was cut short due to the ulcerative colitis and now this season, after only two races in Belgium is over. So, yes – I’m angry.
It was a lot of work to rebuild my fitness, regain my confidence, improve my technical skills and get ready for another season of cyclocross racing. And now, it is all gone. Honestly, it just isn’t fair. I’m not a “poor me” kind of person – but right now I’m tired of being “tested” and “challenged”.
All I wanted was one good year…
and you deserved it ! you gave it everything ….but I am happy to see you walking around. thats for sure..
Your season seemed to be moving in the right direction prior to this. Take your time to recover, and come back next year hungry to race! We’re all still cheering for you!
Thanks very much for the kind words. I’m working hard at not feeling sorry for myself today. I know I’m lucky and this is what I have to remind myself!
This is a interesting post! Many thanks for that! Along with best regards Luke aka couchgool.